Sunday, February 24, 2008
These few days, i was bombarded with different feelings...feelings of disappointment, confusion, lost and yet joy too...it was quite ironic to be yet disappointed and filled with joy at the same time...i feel as though i am very naggy, keep on harping on my situation which will impact my life greatly and somehow not trusting God...
it all started with the sms...CONGRATS,you are posted to SERANGOON JC,SCIENCE under 2008 JAE...this severely shocked me...srjc was my last choice, however i still came in...do i have an affinity with this school???i was posted here too in PAE...at that point of time i was totally disappointed with the posting results and even so much more disappointed with my already disappointing O level's result...such bitter disappointment lasted quite long even till now there is still this disappointment...trying very hard to get it off my mind and to accept srjc is wat i am trying to do....thereafter, confusion came into me...the sudden shocking change in environment, subject combination and its limitations in srjc, the appealing to ajc as well as nyjc...dunno wat to expect nor wat to get is still within me...this confusion filled with a state which makes me lost...feeling lost n wasted was not being able to join O2 in ajc...i also did not know which sub combi to choose...feeling yet lost again...making a decision of staying in srjc or to go poly is yet another question which causes me to tumble and think hard...yet there were moments of joy within this few days...my frens were trying to comfort and encourage me...they cheered me up hoping that i could get back to ajc...i will really miss all my frens from ajc if i am not posted back and have to leave...however everything we do or happen to us, we have to trust God and thank God for it...have faith and he will lead us out of it...
When a door closes,another door opens (to YuJie:another door opens not the window at the 22nd floor...)
yangyang =)
I WROTE AT 12:40 AM
